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Friday, January 6, 2012

Boldly going backwards

This week has been a rough one.  I'm trying to recover, thus far with only partial success, but maybe I'll be able to see my way out of this at some point.

It started last week, when I noticed that most of the indie e-books I've been reading (many of which have been wonderful) had an "About the Author" page at the end.  I thought this would be a nice idea, so I wrote something up, and went back to my manuscripts and appended it to each of them.  I then went through and reformatted and reconverted them, to upload them to Amazon.

The conversion process completely wrecked the formatting.  On all of them.  I went from having basically presentable (if not, perhaps, professional) presentations of my work, to something that looked like it had been formatted by a fourth grader.

So, I started trying to figure out what went wrong.  Evidently, the conversion software had changed since my first upload; there was some incompatibility happening that hadn't happened the first time.  Upon querying some author friends, I found that Amazon is now only able to upload files in .mobi format (mine were being converted to .epub).

So I tried to use my conversion software (Calibre) to convert my files to .mobi.  This resulted in (I am not making this up) a document that had every word deleted, except any words in italics.  At first, it took me a while to figure out what I was looking at -- but finally, I said, "Good lord.  There are only about five words left per chapter... and the only words left are italicized."  How, exactly, the program did this, is beyond me.

To make a long story short, I have (to date) downloaded four different conversion programs.  None of them have worked.  I have tried converting from .epub, .html, and .rtf files.  All have resulted in some form of screwed up formatting -- certainly nothing that would be adequate for publication.  Between myself, and three other people who've tried to make this work, I've spent over ten hours trying to convert a single file -- with zero success.

Result: I've taken all of my e-books offline, indefinitely.  And this means I've had to undo all of the marketing stuff I had in place -- webpages, links, and my page on the Independent Authors' Network -- because now none of the links work.

To say that all of this has been disheartening is a vast understatement.  It has completely taken the wind out of my sails.  I haven't written at all since this began, except to keep up with my blog Skeptophilia -- every time I sit down at the computer, all I can think of is, "What's the point?"  Now, it's not that I really think that there's no point to writing if I can't publish it; it's more that the collapse of what I'd tried to put together has demoralized me to the extent that for the moment, I haven't been able to get past it.

I've had some offers of help, and a couple of people who've said, "Please don't give up!  I love your writing!"  Also, a very kind woman who belongs to the PubWrite network, and whose specialty is getting manuscripts ready for e-publication, offered to do a couple of them for free.  (Her ordinary rate is $50 per manuscript.)  It's a tempting offer, but I demurred, at least for the time being -- part of it is stupid pride ("I want to do it myself!") and a resistance to becoming a charity case, and part of it is that given that I currently have thirteen manuscripts on offer, I would still have to pay over $500 to get them all back together.  And given that all told, I made a grand total of about $30 last year from my fiction, it seems like a lot of money to put into an enterprise that seems to be going nowhere fast anyway.

I've spent most of the week in the Slough of Despond, indulging in a lot of not very becoming Feeling Sorry For Myself.  But now that the initial punch in the gut has worn off, the question is how to proceed.  I'm trying to determine if I really can afford to invest a lot of money into what was supposed to be a Do-It-Yourself project, and how I might wheedle my wife into supporting that decision (compounded by the fact that she just told me last week that as of the first of the year, we'd set aside enough money to carry us through the summer months, when I have no income).  The only alternative at the moment seems to be giving up, and as alternatives go, that one kind of sucks.

Right as all this was going down, I posted as my Facebook status a line I'd stolen from the funny sendup of motivational posters, -- "Winners never quit, and quitters never win; but if you never win and you never quit, you're a moron."  And one of my writer friends responded, "Better to be a moron and eventually succeed than a quitter and become a sure-enough failure.  Soldier through and never give up."  Which is certainly good advice, even if at the moment I don't know how to put it into practice.


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  2. Gordon. if you can't manage, send me your word files, I'll fix it up for you!

    Have you tried uploading to Smashwords, then grabbing the Kindle (mobi file) and saving it then uploading that to amazon?

  3. This is a dreadful thing to happen. It's way beyond me to understand.
    It seems as though Amazon are making things that bit harder in every way.
    When we put Fairies up in October, we just used a word file. It worked. Obviously something has changed.
    I hope you get this sorted soon; do take Thea up on her offer, as she'll make sure you are given the info to do it yourself later.